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Sunday, 11 January 2009

Arghhhh.. Life's terrible.. How nice will it be when life is free from any conflicts and problems.. Sometimes I will just wonder I'm just so young and why am I having all these problems especially this year is an important one for me.. I must admit that I'm growing and yeah problems arise are normal.. But somehow I dunno how to choose when no one can teach me how.. If its homework problem, well, I still can ask anyone I know.. This? Who will ever help me? Headache!!
Right now I really feel very much better after talking to Jia.. I think I can accept that d.. Haha.. Thanks Jia.. I love you to bits.. So here am I gonna do my homework and yeah all the best to you too =)

Monday, 05 January 2009

Currently
My Heart Will Go On
By Celine Dion
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Life just goes on like normal.. Without a stop.. No one can wish for a stop even for one second.. Sometimes I wonder how much I can make use of the every second I have in my life and how much I have ever wasted.. Right now, I mean today, I really wasted alot.. I don't know what to do right now.. I just don't feel good.. At times, I feel that my distance with everyone is so far.. I don't know what I'm thinking now.. I don't even know.. Thats really weird.. I really hope that I can achieve something better this year.. I mean best of all that I have done..
Seriously, I'm really having a big change this year.. Being separated from all my besties is really cruel thing and the big problem that cause it is my health.. I hate it anyway.. I really miss them like mad.. So practically today I'm not happy in class at all.. Only when tuition time, when I met with my gang, yeah, thats the real me.. So many things happen today lar.. My wound really give me a big heart attack and I even cried just now.. The thread came out and I'm so worried.. One thing that I know now is crying all alone is never a good feeling.. Just have a short chat with Jia and I only can be happier.. Life is like that? Alright, for normal, I'll just be happy go lucky and obviously for studies I will try for the best..
Seriously, I kinda agree that ppl say I'm made of tears.. No one can ever see my terrible crying and some minor ones those close friends might saw before.. Since last week, I've been crying for twice.. I think I get too emo and all? I don't even know what I want.. Its just like usual that I keep everything to myself and not to anyone else close to me.. Unless that really what I can share with Jia.. She knows me the best.. I really thank God for giving me such a good friend and yeah thanks for answering our prayers.. I just hope that ppl can really treat me better and not that cold lar.. Whoever you are I'm hoping it from you and you're making me so far from you.. I feel a lil bit sad and out..
Currently listening to my heart will go on.. Its so meaningful to me.. I'm gonna update something more common here and those more deep in which is only for some of my friend and if you were to ask for my add, I'll surely give.. This blog like not that secure.. I just feel like spy all around.. Anyway, I won't abandon this blog still.. Since some really used to my this blog.. I'll smile more..

Monday, 29 December 2008

2008 - a year to remember

2008 is a year which has loads of memories.. So many things happened, no matter happy or sad, I can say that I overcome and enjoy each and everyday to the fullest.. Never forget about the whole bunch of friends I have throughout the year.. Indeed they are so sweet and nice.. This memorable year is one of the years that I have attended so much weddings before.. Mostly cousins, parents colleagues and their friends.. This year I think I have learnt alot by having my problems solved one by one.. It was tough but the sensation after that was great.. Just like my operation.. And now I'm left behind with a 4cm scar ..
I always say that this year is a blast.. Everything that happened was so good and I know more and more ppl.. I really thank God for everyone I have now.. Dibin, the one that always listen to my problems, Ben, crappy sms partner, Jun, one of a kind which means nice, Steve, my filial 'son', Sam, the one that is so nice to bully, Pravinan, he owe me a song still, MeiYan, nice friend during GBSL, Sandra, my nice nice leader and friend, Davina, I love her voice, Anna, She loves to hit my waist, Amelia, the one that looks like MayJet and lastly not to forget about Meng, my beloved dear!!
Hmm, this whole year, I've been really close to these few ppl and I would like to mention their name.. Jia, Hooi, Ying, WaiYee, ShiYun, KangYe, Irene and KarYen!!
A new year is coming and yeah how many more days? I can't wait for it to come and I also scared of the coming year.. I will be having my great challenge of life, SPM!! Just for that I will work very hard and of course not to forget about everyone around me by maintaining a good relationship with them.. It was pretty hard.. But I guess those crazy moments in class will still go on no matter how stressed up we will be.. Thats us.. Well, talking about it, it just remind me about PMR result tmr.. All the best to everyone and Meng ..
I LOVE EVERYONE!!

Saturday, 27 December 2008

Yeah.. Xanga lastly know my needs for it to spill out my everything.. I want someone now.. Darn desperately.. I never feel so bad before.. I know its all my fault.. Putting myself in such a situation.. If one month ago i did a better decision, all these will never happen.. I really mean it.. I really serious for this time.. For the morning, I asked ppl to help me by giving some tips of what he normally likes and all.. I even thought that I can apply it later which means now.. It turned out that none could help..
Right here i really wanna express my feelings.. I hate bitches!! I totally mean it.. Why all these happen? Its not like what i wanna think but what ppl tell me really very hurting.. And the thing is what i should reply? No lar, actually im the one? I hate rumours and especially when it reach me.. I'm selfish at times but this time i never.. For me, everything also can but not ppl tell me nonsense about you two.. I really hate all these.. What will you feel then? Happy? Yeah, i should be.. Don't blame everything on me.. This time really your fault.. Your fault for relating both matters together and do that..
I'm just strong at the appearance.. I can never stand all these.. I'm never special and i'm just like ordinary girl.. When got hurt, i will cry.. Seriosuly, think back what you did, i never wanna mention coz i don't wanna ruin our relationship.. But this time when ppl tell me, I won't keep in my heart anymore..

Monday, 22 December 2008

Now im exactly a sicko.. Not that sick lar.. Can walk, can talk, can sms, can eat, can drink, can sleep and yeah almost everything also can.. Just that I can't bend down, can't bath nicely and some can't which is quite private to mention.. I'll skip through and I think most of us will know lar.. Haha.. I really thank everyone for the care and attention.. Btw, don't be so serious lar.. I never say its your fault, so no more sorry k? At the stage, I'm more dfa and dfl.. Knowing all these has occur, I'm getting more matured as what Bin said.. Yeah, going through new things and realising new things.. I must admit that I have grown up more.. I know how to face things alone even there's tons of ppl be with me.. But sometimes situation really don't allow anyone be with me.. I succeeded..
After this, I can see who really good to me.. After getting to know this, my aunt really worrying and keep praying with me.. Outside the operating theatre, dad and bro are there to pray for me and they practically never sleep well whole night.. All these really touched me.. It reminds me that somewhere there's someone be with me no matter how far are we.. I really thank God for this small sickness.. I treasure ppl even more especially you!
Something for you...
When I'm lost, I always depend on you.. A small trouble or anything disappointing, they never made me weak nor let me down, because I know you will be with me.. A readily shoulder and hand are always there for me to hold me and bring me back to light.. I really dunno what happen to us now.. I really hope that you can be with me when I solve it and also in my weakest moment.. You really mean alot to me.. No one can be as important as you..
Dinner's tonight.. Really hope I'm fine throughout the dinner.. I wanna thank God and everyone that ever care of me.. Its me with all your help and support.. I'm going back to the doc tmr.. Okay, I'm out